i, i love u 4eva, 4eva n always.

one fine day. juz like the usual days, the sun was shining so brightly. a guy and a girl walk side by side like they usually did. the breeze was so calming that they cudnt stop smiling towards each other. they stopped and lied down under an orange maple tree. in between those maple leaf, the sun rays was racing to get through. hands were locked. he looked at her in the eyes.

she smiled at him. blushed. and looked again at the cloud. she loves him so much that he was the only one she sees under the tree. they havent seen each other for quite sum time. she was thrilled to see him. how she miss him in every single second of her life. he pulls her head to his shoulder. she took a breather in. "oh, this is my tranquillity", resting against him.

then she looked at him. noticed that his mouth was moving. wondering what was he talking about. he's updating her on his daily life. sort of reporting everything to her. his working life to his home. evrything. n she did the same afterwards. they were enjoying the precious time together as if no one was there.

when the sunset was eager to come out, they were already at the back seat of a black car on their way back home. his mobile rang to a mushy korean tone. she lol-ed at the fact he was such a man. with one hand he replied to the text, while the other hand was still holding onto her.

girl: "who's that?"

boy: "juz sumone that i intent to go out with".

girl:*hesitated*

boy: "a fren of mine, he introduced me to his fren few months ago. n sumhow we get along well. n i kinda like this girl. u know, since us, never had i thought of any girl. when we were apart, i nvr think of it but now i wanna gv it a try again. u know, we were good. in fact i never loved anyone as much as i had loved u. u r the only girl that i can get along like this even after everything that had happened between us. but u do know that us is not gonna work any more right?

girl: *hesitated with watering eyes*

*mobile rings again. *

boy: hello syg, im on my way. naaah, im with u know who. bla bla bla bla.

girl: *inhale n rase mcm nk mati on the spot*

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*my iphone's alarm rang to bigbang's tonight tone, i hit the snooze button*

sobbed. glad it was juz a dream. f*** that was so real.

wut if it is real? n wut if mmg btol2 jd? hah padan muka! tu je laaa.

damn that was so freaaaking real. i jumped outta my bed prepared to go out to meet fstepian sume. n that dream seems like an old film reel of tape which doesnt know how to stop playing in my head till now.

i dun wanna be her. seriously. let that just be a dream pls Ya Allah. :(

kata hati- a self reflection

dun judge a book by its cover

penah x dengar menda alah niiii?

penah la kot kan. kalo x penah mai nak habaq padia kan!

cerita 1:

dulu mase kekecik, cik hotz *bukan name sbena* slalu nak geleng kepala tgk 1 keadaan ni.

asal nmpk jee msti tergeleng2. rasa kesian pon ade. 'kenapa la orang2 ni buat bende ni *let say bende B*? alpa sgt diorng ni' tu la kata haty dea mase tu. tp mase tu, bnde B yg mengalpakan ni lah yg buat orng tabik. yg buat self-esteem meningkat tggi mcm klcc.

but again its prohibited. tggi lah mcm mane pon tetap xptot. benda B adalh salah.

n cik hotz, being the one who is on the right path, yg tahu benda A adelah betol, people stays away from her. desperately in need of attention kot, cik hotz ni pon skit2 change herself.tergoda jugak dea pon buat perkara B.

10 thn kemudian, mmg tggi self- esteem nye. bukan klcc dah tp tahap eiffel tower kot!

x yah pkai heels. everything she does today dgn penuh rase condifentnye! ;p jln yg lurus 10 thun dlu which is benda A, x dpt nk bg cik hotz kepuasan niii. amboih. ke mane tah hilangnye semua tu. ty kt diri sndiri. jwpn deep down inside her heart is still 10 years back punye jawapan.

she knows dis is wrong. she knows she shudnt be doing dis. but she needs dis badly.

AGAIN, in need for attentions, she pure2 x tahu.

the only prob is, today, people aren't that alpa lagi dah! benda A dah jd fenomena. bkn benda B yg orng nk lagi. out of sudden it was the other way round. she's the one who will make people geleng2 each time they see her. now she's the alpa part of the earth.n bcoz of this, people judge her as sumone- who doesnt- know- a- thing, orng yg ptt dielakkan. is she? bile ty dea soalan, she answered it brilliantly. terbahek dr ladang. basic kuat sgt! mereka2 yg tunding jari dkt dea menggeleng lg. as if perempuan x guna, tahu tp x apply. kedengaran ayat2 mcm ni-" mcm la ko bgs sgt! dah la x buat A ade hati nk ckp mcm ni"

so ape motif cerita ni?

nmpk x mcm mane org keliling boleh affect sumone?

dr lua anasir bnyk, tp diri sndiri tergoda nk ikt pon satu hal.

tp bile di judge rs marah.

marah diri sndiri sbb tahu slh sndiri tp still rs nk melambat2 kan blik to basic.

ape kate kalo instead of bia orng2 ni judge, kite make a stand dulu.

bia ade prinsip. jgn nak ikot orng sgt.

orng buat A, kite pon nk buat. jap lg bile orng buat B kite pon buat B.

dah tibe2 bende A tu jd trend kite pon nk buat balik.

kononye nk orng sntiasa ikt.

xpenat ke ikot orng manjang? ty diri sndiri then jawablah.

kalo bende2 baik nk ikot then its fine. tp kalo dah sah2 tepampang xptt jgn lah.

xda alasan! :)

one more thing. cube support sikit. jgn nk perli2 kalo benda baik.

xsuke diam suda. hak masing2. kalo kite dah tahu kite betol jgnlah nak diss orng on the matter.

sumtimes even though a person may look like a bimbo. x bermakna dea bimbo.

even though she looks like a slut, it doesnt mean she is.

jgn igt orng tu nmpk x guna tp dea x taw apa.

mmg cik hotz ni x apply tp do we need to judge her?

x ke maloo kalaw dea tahu lebih dr kite yg konon2 nye TERSANGAT BAGOSS!

bile selame ni kite dok tgk dea seblah mate tp hakikatnye kite pon kosong lg nak dibandingkan dgn dea. sbb tu Allah dah create varieties. we r meant to igt kan each other bukan nak bangga2 diriii. x ke lebih bagoss if we pray the best for her? guide each other? compliment each other? sesame umat ilmu jgn nk kedekut. x rugi ponn. tp gune la channel yg btol.

sng jawapan benda ni. sile lah berigt. x lame pon idop nii. tah ade lg esok or x kite pon x tahu. there's time when we need to make a decision.

weight out the pros and cons. if the pros arent permissible maybe the cons r the way it is.

there's a hikmah in everything la kan. juz take out the postve of it n let the weakness alone.

ikotkan hati mmg x nk buat tp kalo x buat x boleyh

makne nye kene buat. tp x ikhlas nk buat? kalo x ikhlas pon tepakse kan? so buat je lahh! sggop x terima padah kalo x buat? x sgop? jd buat lah! as simple as that

tp nak buat tu kne la sekeras2 hati nye stand for it n buat sebuat2 nye!

:) ok bye.

p/s: bkn sng to hold on to a principe. kuatkan semangat!

forever and always

im playing this particular song on repeat atm.

emoooooooo T.T

juz take a look at this jelly2 lyric

She's sitting at the table, the hours get laterHe was supposed to be hereShe's sure he would have calledShe waits a little longer, there's no one in the drivewayNo one's said they seen himWhy, is something wrong?She looks back to the windowSuddenly the phone ringsA voice says somethings happenedThat she should come right nowHer mind goes to DecemberShe thinks of when he asked herHe bent down on his knees firstAnd he said

Chorus:

I, I want you forever, forever and alwaysThrough the good and the bad and the uglyWe'll grow old togetherForever and always

Verse 2:

She pulls up to the entranceShe walks right to the front deskThey lead her down a million halls a maze that's never endingThey talk about what happened but she can barely hear themShe tries to keep a straight face as she walks into the roomShe sits by his bedside, holds his hand too tight
They talk about the kids they're gonna have and the good lifeThe house on the hillside, where they would stay

Chorus:

Stay, there forever, forever and alwaysThrough the good and the bad and the uglyWe'll grow old together, and always rememberWhether rich or for poor or for betterWe'll still love each other, forever and always

Bridge:

Then she gets an idea and calls in the nursesBrings up the chaplain and he says a couple versusShe borrows some rings from the couple next doorEverybody's laughing as the tears fall on the floorShe looks into his eyes, and she says

Chorus:

I, I want you forever, forever and alwaysThrough the good and the bad and the uglyWe'll grow old together, and always rememberWhether happy or sad or whateverWe'll still love each other, forever and alwaysForever and always, forever and always

She finishes the vows but his beeps are getting so lowHis voice is almost too lowAs he says, I love you forever, forever and alwaysPlease just remember even if I'm not thereI'll always love you, forever and always

this whole song seriously sounds like a fairy-tales

im not saying that it doesnt exist but life must go on.

alaaaah lagu. mmg laaaa. haaaih

when there's so much to think about yet i cant take u off my mind.

woih da kenape niiii. i shud forget not reminiscing

*ketok kepala sendiriii*

Ya Allah, only U knows wut is the best

2012- its so gonna be a challenging year.

i hope i'll get the job, not juz me, but all of us too

Amin. :)

all in

sumpah x tipu.

all this time, there wasn't a second had passed by without me thinking of u.

yes im all in for u.

years had passed by

yet it has been the same since the day that i knew u.

bcoz iloveu for who u r ;D

baby, im urs!

ok nk tido.

Comfort zone

:) senyum lebaaaaaaaq sangat! sumhow today despite of the keta-cik-ekin-terpecah incident i juz feel like smiling.

In fact ive been a lunatic for the past few days. Yupe. My placement is coming n im so freakin nervous bout it. But hey, after spending half of the day w the rest of the fstepian i must say that how grateful am i to be chosen by abb. seriously, all of the top bankers cant stop whining n complaining how miserable their employee had been treating them so far. Most of them are eagerly waiting for the next fortnight to the finishing line of the program. Sile besyukur rakan2! ;)

Oh ya! I had a great day out w my sesayangs las saturday. Amboih x igt dunia sensorng. Seronok kan jd budak2. Main je la suke2 haty. Jerit la sekuat rase. Nobody bothers. Seriously, that was the true me. My comfort zone is when im w them. Xyah nak mekap2. Rambut mcm da 10 thun x mandi pon x peduli. See how selesaaa i am when they r w me. Its a zone where i cud juz b me. Oh crap ilovethem. :)


Btw i AM posting this particular oh-so-mushy2-entry juz for the sake to test this blogger apps which i juz downloaded few seconds ago hahaha kompem berteraburan! Blogger on the go! How ohsem is that!!!!! Ok ciao!