frivolous much?

i cant believe this. lawak pon ade.

today i got scolded by my sayangness 4 not being mad at all.

the thing is im not. i dont.not at all. seriously.

ive been called stoopid. na wat camane sy mmg stoopid bab2 nih.

i admit that.

for being a noob in a rship. sy x penah becinte oke? mmg lembab la kan. x tawu sane sni.

but it was a good lesson to take note of. i dun hv the right to judge people.

n im still holding to that despite o everything.

i dun hv the right to point out to anybody instead o myself.

i put the blame on me. dah sng.

they hv their own reason for doing wutever they wanted to do, or to cut the knot.

i respect that. n for that reason its up to ur own thinking to interpret things.

juz dun assume. pls. juz dun. as it is the mother to all fuck ups!

plz clarify. but if it cant be help, or refusal of clarification happens, nothing can be done la.

sume da besa. da pandai. blaja smpai lg setingkat je. boleyh beza kot orng na main2 ke hape. boleyh beza kot gurau2 or serious. as there's more to life, this is too frivolous to start a fight.

dah tu je. *peaaace*

:)

karma sure knows how to do its work

peringatan utk dri sniri:

dun ever blame others. n pls dun anticipate for bad happenings. once u did that, all the actions wont come out good as u know it wont. u choose it to be that way. nobody wish for bad things in between. so we try our best to avoid it.

now, at this particular entry, im relieved! relief for all the things that is meant for me. relief for everything. alhamdulillah for that. lapang dada kan? :) im gonna stop the planning. cancel everything out n juz enjoy wuts life had to offers me. and at the same time, im thinking of fulfilling abah's dream. *eh bru ckp x nk plan?* naaah. coz it is the best for me.

i dun lose anything. xde ape pon. xperience was a good teacher. w/o everything that had happened i wont had learnt anything. now i know everything is within ur ownself. n now i know wut is best for me. thanx for everything. ini ikhlas. nobody is perfect. i may want people sees me as perfect b4. but wut is perfect if u r suffering inside rite? xde gune. no one is perfect. pegang ni sampai maty. and pelis zaty jgn besa kepala sgt. nak hbt2 sgt pon ade lg raaamai lua sane yg lg hbt. hbt mane pon kaw zaty, xde gune kalo sume orng lari. hve some dignity oke. yupe, money is important but wut is more important is to be able to live a good life, loved by everyone around yet be a good servant of HIM :D

*::* may only all the good n success b w u wherever u r, doa saye utk awk smpai bile2*::*

Calar~

Oke. Ini entry sedeyh. Dah tapayah bace weyh.
It was supposed to b a blast. It was supposed to end up w a smile. But here I am. Outside. Alone. No idea y am here.

Never had I ever in my life broke into tears in front of anybody. I don't do that. I never did that. I have some sort of dignity to do that. As if I was the strongest girl on earth. But today, I can't help it. Juz by a question from my gfs today, right after we were out from the mcD, "kau oke kok ti?" I looked at her, n yeah I cried. Screw anybody passing by. I juz cried. I thought I was over it. But I guess am not.
I love u so much that I can't open my mouth but juz to stare at u. Betol, bak kate emir td, I dun want anybody else but her. Juz her. N that is how I feel. Juz u. Yeah u. N I'm officially lembik n stoopid. If it was meant to b dis way. Ya Allah, now I leave it up to u. Coz I hv no idea at all. Coz being a 1st timer in a r/ship, I seriously don't know anything at all. Skarang sy na idop saje. Bye.


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blah.

this is wut happened when u lose ur mind.

i had swore b4 not to ever straighten ma hair.

but i guess, when ur heart is not straight enuff~ u straighten ur hair instead!

initially, i was thinking of pulling a rihanna- super- sleek- straight- bob's hairstyle, but the hairstylist refused to cut it short. syg katenye. hermm.

wutever.

now i look like a twin to budak kechik!

i dun care.

im fat. she's not.

tapayah twin sgt lah! :D

hp7 here i come!

Bloody orange!

So this is wut I get once I reached home after work today. My bloody orange dress! *oke saye taw blkng tu besepah, so abaikan pls. * Hihi. Omg. PoplOok really did sent this within a day. Laju! :D im turning girlish each day. Wonder y? *tanda2 penuaan lg ke?* ouch!

Nvm. Another 2 days 2 go. Nex wk is super hectic. W rat race, bnm projct, plus nazir razak is coming too. N yeah it'll b ramadhan in a blink. N I'm missing u even more. Dis is wut people call madness. Even when u know its stoopid, its not worth it yet u juz dun wanna accept things! Kpala hotak ✗ function. Haty tapayah ckp la.

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