cause i cant stop thinking bout u~~ lalalalala

DEYMN moving on is hard!
lg 1 mggu je cuti n its getting harder to let go.
n its gonna be impossible after that!
i did almost everything keeping maself from the thought
pgg gitar blik- pon na men lagu sedeyh2 HISH!
tgok vid x berenti- agk nye sbb tgok ur beautiful sbb 2 x jln.
pantang tgok heartbreaking scene + hong ki's tears kills me!
yup hes not moving~ n saw something that i shouldn't have~ stupid fb!

so im living it to god's will
if he's the one than he'll be mine~ THAT JUZ IT!

HE'S 24 N I LOVE HIM!

HEEEEEEEEEEEE~~~

yamande epi 6 is out! n there goes kame's hair! awww syg gilew ptg naseb jd elok~ huhuhuh arghhhh yg plg x menahan dlm epi ni~!

KAME SLEPT ON HER LAP!

that is like my dream 4 god's sake!!

haih2~ hotness is overwhelming when everyone betumbuk w/o their shirt on!! hehehehehe *gelak gatai*

well its 24th feb! yesterday was my dear KAZUYA KAMENASHI otanjoubi!!
omedetto sweetheart!

seems like yesterday we had a gathering for his 23rd. its been a year since then. time flies people! i cant believe he's 24 yet he already owns everything! from car, house, name EVERY SINGLE THING THAT A MAN CAN DREAM OF! seriously he's like everything and it has been this way since almost 3 years! the time n money that i spent on this particular man who i adore does mean a lot to me. i thank ALLAH for creating such a puuuuuuuuuuuurfect guy 4 me to idolize! hahaha *poyo gilew* but hey thats the truth. he change every single thing in my life, from my routine, lifestyle, taste, relationship! yes i do have a high hopes in man since i know how high a man can go w/o having to rely on education but juz by striving for what they want.

For being a hardworking man u are, for being able to cheer up my entire day, for the motivation u gave me, for being a superb idol, for being an adorable person n for being who u r, u amaze me. =D
zati wish u all the best and may u be the next big thing!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHUCHUNII! *chu1000x*

hahaha smpat jgk siap kan ni juz for the day demo~ my compaq syg sumhow buat hal~ ngade2 x nk save this vid~ since it took me like 2 hours in total 2 make this vid~ asek tepadam sniri tibe2 x bg signal! herrmmmm sbb da bwat n teruja na upload bertahan la 8jutax ttp bkk blik~ huuuuu at last IM SATISFIED! well cant resist jin's hotness in the mv so i juz leave the part in the vid!


regarding my life~ ntah knape berpuas haty plak sepanjng hari~ maybe sbb ur beautiful kot~! IM OFFICIALLY A YONGHWA'S FAN! glew hot! apsl kecik2 da hot! bak perlian eddy zain td~ grr YES I AM into kpop lately and i blame this man! alaaa mmg da tebiase dgn mama yg ske sgt tgok korean drama. harus la ade tempias2~ tp itu la dea korean guys hanye ade effect hot tp still i need the X factor yg ade ps kame itu! huhuhuhu x puas haty sbb bkn yonghwa jd 1st hero~ ok na smbung blik! chiao!

location: ats katil
current music: KARA - lupin

current mood: di awangan

kemaruk!

HUAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

gle. x btol.

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG

YAMANATO NADESHIKO SHICHI HENGE SGT LAWAK!

cant stop watching it since i started n its only 5 epi!!

DEYMN kne tgu next wk for next epi~~~

WAAAAAAA SGT DENGKI DGN SUNAKO ITEW~

she got to:

• hug him
• look at him straight in his eyes
• smell him
• KISS HIM 4 GOD SAKE~ *glew time ni aku jerit 1 umah! agk nye seblah pon leyh dgr jeritan kedengkian tesebut*

HOW I REAAAAAAAAAAAALLY WISH THERE'S A GUY OUT THERE YG MCM KYOUHEI!

• he doesnt wanna admit that he loves her yet when she was out there looking for that stoopid anatomy doll he went out n searched for her like a mom who juz lost her child
• he doesnt admit that he loves her yet he cant c her tears falling down her cheek *this is where the hugs come!*
• he doesnt wanna admit that he loves her yet he keeps on bullying her to do this n that!
• he doesnt wanna admit that he loves her yet he risk his pride for her~~

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww *hyperventilates*

the best part is when he realized that he do loves her!

• when he tries to calm his own heart when she falls for another guy
• ahh n the part where he pulls her to his chest as he can no longer bare her tears~~ *gaaah*
• menumbuk2 dada sniri yg pnas kejelesan~ haish *cute na mampos!*
• n bile dea dush2 dgn suuuuume org sbb xmo bg sunako kawen dgn pervert tu~ *yucks10000x*

kame did a SUPERB job on portraying kyouhei! xcpt the fact that he didnt blonde his hair *well thnx god for that* personally, i love kame's version of yamanade better than the original version. well, i dun usually go for anime anyway~ . =p

cop! stop psl yamande.

today tade pape yg terjadi xcpt the fact that:

• i got scold for buying a new bag~ herrm naseb ade cik nad x larh tggi sgt tahap leteran td.
• n to cik nad thank u so much for the bday present! its my fav of body shop! =)
• zati still x leyh function. yes indeed he do has sumone inside his heart. chances that im the girl is like 0.000000001. x de sign pape pon. well instinct la hopefully slp. huhu seriously how pathetic more can i be atm? tataw tataw tataw! naseb baek tgh cuti. at least i have the time to calm down. think straight. properly adjust to every input. hopefully i can accept the fact in the next 2 weeks or i dun even know how on earth am i gonna start a slight conversation anymore. btol. i dun wanna ruin the frenship. once zati opens up her heart to anyone, it seems like there wont even be a door with an exit sign on top of it. *xcpt for penipu la* but he isnt 1! he didnt do anything which make it harder *berusaha zati!*
• aigoooo~ lg 1~ kok nih's mocha got married already which reminds me of my machiatto~ herrm tah idp lg ke x? no idea. yg pntng he's not that important as lelaki ini. i mean if we weren't meant 4 each other mmg serabut since there's frendship n everyone else. plz la 'if btol2 ske ckp je la' hahaha bodo je ayat!

well finished with hid's ratio. nothing else to do. so my next marathon is gonna be mr. goodbye! *lameee da smpn na tgok ni* n im downloading u r beautiful *for the sake of yonghwa* hahaha

location: in front of desktop
current music: yamapi- loveless

current mood: pth haty. x kuase na lyn

keeping it to herself =/

PeOPLE~ PEOple~
SUmTiMeS We ThInK Dat We’D alReadY fOuNd SuMOnE Dat wE aLwYz wANTed 4 d ResT oF oUr LifE~
YuP~ sUmBodY tHaT cOuLd TuRN oUr eNtIrE wOrLd UpsidE-DOwn-WiThOuT-EvER-neEd-2-cOnCeRn-AnyThInG-EVa~!

ThE SaMe PeRsOn ThaT cAn SiMply aFfEct uS by:

• 1. GiVing u gOosEbUmPS WiTh Juz a WiNk and A sIdEwAY SMiLE~
  
• 2. MaKiNG Ur HeARt BEatS uNcoNtROlLAblY aS if It Cud JumP oUt OF uR cHEST~
• 3. mEsSiNg Up Ur DaiLy rOUtiNE
  
• 4. sTuCk in UR heAd like 24/7
  
• 5. mAke U sMiLe FoR No ReAsOn
  
• 6. bE tHE rEaSoN of EVerY aCTiON tHat u GoNna TAkE
• 7. qUOTiNg the PeRsOn NAme In EVerY SenTenCe tHAt CoME OuT OF uR mOuTh
• 8. DOn Mind To Go oUt oF uR lImiT as loNg aS ThE pErsOn is wiTh U
• 9. U StIlL NEed to bE WiTh tHAT pErSoN evEN tHoUgH tHE whOle WOrLd is w U
• 10. The NEeD 2 lOok aT THe PeRsoN jUz 4 A sEc peR dAy wHiCh Cud TuRn Ur Day InTo a fAiRy lanD!
  

yeah not only me in fact all of human being in every tiny bits part of the world is in need for the person as the other half! sumtimes we may think that he or she is the one but it may only be on a one sided base! people may say that a girl and a boy are not meant to be good fren! idk! it may be true in a way but sumhow i simply cant accept the view! i mean its totally up to us how to turn things around. but for me a confession may spoil the relationship that we had share as frens.

people around told me to gv it a go~ he's ok w it~but dun they think that there's boundaries need to be cross~ dun even start on the guts! the most important thing is that to ensure that we shared the same feeling or else it will wreck everything! i dun need a confession to mess up everything. juz being w him make me see through his heart. he's not into it and that juz it! well maybe i was wrong but it doesnt look like he moved on~! n who am i to be another person if he still cant forget his old flame? i have no power to turn around everything!

frens said that we r a thing n he's available and me juz have to work harder. i did n it turn out good but now =.=; i've lost my interest not toward him but to try my best. he's not responding as he used to. what i wanna do now is juz to wait! MENUNGGU! titik. x nk teheges la! i know usaha tangge kejayaan but only if it doesnt involves feeling! what usaha can i make if the kejayaan is .................................... T.T

LatELy aLL I cOuLd ThInK oF iS jZ Ma LiFe~
HoW pLaiN IT wAS~
No ADvEnTuRe~
no UpS n DoWN~
NOTHING~!
Oh CoMe On~ hOw BoRiNg coUlD iT b MoRe~

FeeLs LiKe EvErYThIn’ S RuIn~
COMPLETELY~
mA miNd StARtS tO WanDeR tO aNoTheR diMEnSIoN oF LiFe~
ThInKiNg oF tHe PosSIBiLiTy~

IF i’M sTroNg EnOuGH~
IF i AvE D gUts~
IF I Jz LeT iT b d waY iT wAS
If I cOuLd Jz LeT hIM kNoW~
LiFe WoUlD B mUcH bEttEr~ i GUeSs~

so thats the end of ma oh-so-boring ramble of my stupidness. gle x de keje. otak merewang mende gile. haty x btol. sume terabor. cuti mmg best. tp seriously x keruan.hahaha bodobodobodo.

location: on the couch
current music: kamenashi kazuya- aishiteru kara

current mood: MAW DEA!

bowlinG!

yeaaaaaaay! dpt kalahkan daya men boling! hahaha xD at last daya pancit td!

hurrrmmmm kenyang sgt kot~ mane x nye! td abah ajk pegy lunch at de palma hotel ampang!

mak aih sdp btol~ menu yg msok dlm perowt td ialah:

1) chicken chop

2) hot dog yg gile aaaah besa

3) oriental rice set w/ chicken n fillet

4) nasi goreng kampng dgn chicken wing

5) cucur udng + psg gorng + kledek grg+ dan segala2 nye gorng

6) Cantonese mee

7) teh tarik

8) double happines juice

9) ice cream goleng

10) sandwich tuna + telur

11) etc

hahahahaah ni ade larh menu utk 6 org je tp mcm nak double je! hahahaha

pastu blik gatal g men bowling~! herm 3 game pon jadi larh kn sume da gian na loncat!

afiq agk frustrated sbb x dpt score normal dea~ x yah kate normal minimum pon x smpai! hahaha sume men mcm org bru blaja~ x smpai 100 pon tp hyper je lebeyh!

mama ckp x padan dgn x de lesen duk umah x mo~! ni larh time na besuke ria nnt x dpt da! =d

so score kanak ribena yg hyper je lebeyh byk ni je pon! =d well mao tu wakil kolej mmg x leyh lwn larh~ tsssk! x pe next tyme ade lg! 8D jaaaaa maw pegy bermimpi yg indah2! nite2~ *chu!*

location: home sweet home
current music: suju- it's u

current mood: iwantutobemine!