if only, only if!

if not only had i been a gud daughter. if only i were given a chance to speak. if only i had voice out. only if, people dont see me as the girl who knows nothing, things wud have been dffrnt, i guess. these if(s) has been crossing both me n ami's thought since we started w the common functional area. the crowd was great. in fact i cudnt be more grateful for having them each day. seriously. the prob is again the inner crowd itself. the ego. the thoughts of the purpose of having to do things that aren't suppose to be done by us. at least we thought we shoudnt have done this. arent we suppose to enjoy this? well we need to for the next 4 months. a word of wisdom for today, "live ur life doing things that u love, live the fun out of it" yeah i wish! i had enough w the fun. i need a purpose now! which i cant think of any. huhuhu. each day i'll get the same q from ami-" wut am doin here again?" *salah orng la kan ty soklan mcm ni xde jwpn pon!* how boring can this turn into~? no idea. n its getting more complicated each day. with that saying, i shud switch off now. T.T

.shoot! the only guy who can make me leave u mr bf ehem wud be him!

*igt nih smpai maty k!* :d

*oke. yes i lied. shud have added jason wade in the list too. oh n james franco w patrick dempsey!eh wait, i think i left out jensen ackles! hahaha*

-she who is always a sucker when it comes to a mischievous sideway smile :p

*::*i am in misery, there ain't nobody who can comfort me oyeah!*::*