fix me

"u get in a relationship for better or for worse. this is the worse part.

the thing is there will be better parts. u shud go back,"

- grey to yang

"thats wut u shud be feeling, i took it all out for u. so u can be pissed w me, or at me. i dun care coz im going to stay through it all. im not goin anywhere christina. im not goin anywhere w/o u!"

-owen to yang

"yang: wud u love me if i wasnt a surgeon? owen: i wud love u if u were a plumber"

-oke. ni sweet gile

well said. n thats how i am atm.

im paralyzed. n i cant move.

the only one who has the tools to fix me is u.

oke bye.

july the 18th

awww~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY BUDAK!

syg kaw ketat2 la!

dem she's 20! my bb is now an adult!

how old can i possibly go?

sobs!

im getting weirder each day.

my eyes are swollen from who knows wut.

i dun sleep much these days.

insomniac ke? sort of.

n i dun eat much due to the lazyness too.

sgt lemaw n bosan!

im tired of fixing me.

from now on i pledge that never will i be a crybaby anymore!

i wasnt one b4~ n i shud not be 1 too.

the thing is outta control

if sumone doesnt want to

who r u to make it work.

spill everything out,

share every second of ur life w them

even if it was everything for u

but when it was only u who's been trying,

it'll juz....herm.

it takes two to tango

n its truth

yupe. its freakin true.

i dun mind learning tango again.

im here.

if i ever come across ur mind.

juz as u always do in mine.

dah bye!

lovely sistas

pose betajok- mane sotong tepong saye! ish! :p

hermm. dis weekend was juz another lepaking story.

full w unplanned xtvties.

the initial plan was: hp7. tido.mkn.n tidooooooo the whole weekend

but it turned out to: screw-harry-potter-i-need-the-beach-NOW! trip!

while we were on the road to watch the movie w the tix in hand,

i told the girls that senate's meeting result was out.

within a blink, they grabbed my baby b4 screeaaaaming out loud out of happiness that their name was in the convocation list!

n only when they were back to the state of conciousness again,

they realized that i actually drove the car to bagan instead!

:p

but yeah it was awesome! we ate like we havent eaten anything for thousand years.

strolled (or actually rolled) by the beach side till the next day.

the story doesnt end there.

the next day, jus as i finished my "nih yg aku suke duk sni ni, xde na jupe sape2" sntence,

kak siti was behind me!

:p there u go, a small reunion out of the blue.

kak liza: eh, makin chantek la awk.

kak siti: orng tgh bahagia nih

*oke ini tipoo sgt! sbb saye mcm meroyan adela*

:''(

that i went to cut my longest ever curly hair.

x pena kalo curl pnjang2 mcm tu.

dah xde sbb na simpan.

rs mcm na nanes je ms amoi tu potong

comel kan diorang? :p

when i was missing u so bad,

the time doesnt stop ticking,

so does my heart,

n i despise that.

the fact that LOTS r happening out there,

yet it feels like nothing.

n i despise that too!

when u dun even bother,

n im still a mess over here,

juz by missing u

yes. i despise that!

tsssk

Hey! Mourn-ning whoever-is-actually- reading- dis- crap! :p I'm driving n blogging atm. How cool is that! *cool kepala hotak kaw!* :p nvm. The traffic is killing! I'm late n I'm freaking out.

Juz as I'm driving. The thoughts of u come across my mind. *ermm penah ke ✗?* :s
Seriously, I wish there' s a rewind button in life. Juz like watching a movie on ur own tv. At least once. I'm prepare to delete the chasm btwn us n replay it all over again. I dun mind doin that. Iloveunthatjusit! :s

Oke. Bye.
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heartquake

*google-ing while trying to look hot. definitely a total failure.*

OMG. its been a year since las ramadhan.

everything is starting all over again.

mothers, aunties, r picking up colours for eid.

mega sales shopping. jalan tar. sogo. u name it. they r everywhere.

ramadhan brings me back to those days in university.

despite of the ups n down of the biological clock, it was a time to remember.

we were occupied w the thesis n assignments to the extent that gsm seems like our home instead.

dun lemme start on the bazaar. *nyummy!*

today, its a different story.

ive lost interest on eid.

n mama cant stop asking what r we going to wear this year.

i dun care. thats wut i told her. im ok w anything.

thats when she went to my sis instead.

the thing is i jus dun care for anything atm.

besides lining up my thoughts back to normal.

which i wont b able to do it when the heart is empty.

seriously, its ridiculous when there's no reason for it.

i was the happiest.

whenever i know that there was always someone there for me.

n i dun simply accept anyone into my life.

be it friends or whoever.

boleyh kire gune jari.

despite of all the good things that has occur this year;

ive been super cool, :p *oke nih tipoo*

ive been at the highest level of intelligence that i cud possibly go

i went up levels of my own limits

ive done lots of new things

yet, when the base is deteriorates, good things can only remain as good things.

n thats how pathetic life has been.

*::*Ya Rabbi, only U knows everything

i did picked the ripest apple from the tree

indeed. it was. n still is.*::*