Sayang. ;D

Hello people who actually reads this. Hehe. :) eid is coming soon. Its so amazing how fast time flies. When i was juz having a hard time to actually get off the most comfortable bed on earth in my house for sahur, we only left a week to make full use of Ramadhan.

This year, unlike yesteryear, im sort of looking forward for eid. Not that i-cant-wait-to-put-up-my-all-brand-new-raya-apparel sort of excitement. Its the excitement to actually laaaaaay down like nobody else's business and to be there with my love ones after such a long time. Even though im here everyday w my tangkai haty, the jolly celebration is sumthing that i certainly cant wait. I wanna peloks everyone especially those lil kiddies n kiss em smpai sume muntah darah. U see, how my hormones are getting older too? Dlu tgk budak2 mcm mampoih p kt hang la, now rs mcm nk pgg xnk lpas2. -.-!

Nevertheless of everything, dis ramadhan definitely was a better one than last year. I was shattered to pieces yet today im back to myself. Hai la haty. Didnt notice it at all, until a gf whispered to me during our last iftar at kgpa that i looked more radiant n glowy from the last time we met. Beseri2 sgt apahal. Haha gune la clinique! Kompem cantik! ;p

Im blessed for having these people around. N i wont ask for more. They know me in and out. My loud n my silent side. Alhamdulillah for everything.
:) Growing old is mandatory. I wanna have a memorable n lovely lane of it.

Yes this raya im gonna miss u super hard! ;p

throwing tantrums

so as i predicted. the judging has been done. the criminal was charged guilty by the court. pffft. like seriously?? ive been blaming myself since forever! its the matter of being a respectful employee, trying hard to get the aura of the work place, to get a hold wut is goin on everywhere, not to annoyingly budging in, everything!!

this negative pressuring challenges is not good. not at all. yet ive endured everything silently. now being the usual heartless individual, nothing is acceptable to their eyes. as a noob, u shall act as a noob. dun try to stir things up. learn it the hard way. u, urself shall dig everything using wutever tools that u have. wut if u werent given any tools to start w? well u shall ask for it. as simple as that. blergh. its a fact that people will stop asking once they didnt get wut they want. 18x ty jwpn pon sama. u wont ask again for the 19th time.

my guards are down. people are getting so full of themselves. only they saw the fact which are contributing to their profits. for the past 25 years of living i havent learn a way to learn things wo guidance. every single thing shud have a proper way of doing it. nak jd artis kna p blaja vokal. kne p ty kt cekgu cemana nk nyanyi. lpas tu cekgu ajaq laaa. tp kalo cekgu ckp hang bantai p la nyanyi asalkan nyanyi. x de nye nk jd siti nurhaliza on the dot. even after asking for help, i still didnt know how to settle things. wut i get u juz do it, then u'll ask for anything. how shall i do this? read it? yupe. yah ive read i so wut? wut shud i dig from this? everything. wut is everything?  this n this. oke so how shall i get to this and this? erm it depends. wut is it depends on? factor a or b. where did this a n b comes from? up to u. huh? ur own call. wut if i called it wrongly? then u will go n correct it but try not to do so. how shud i call it correctly? u'll learn it by time. thats it. lama2 nnt oke la. BERAPA LAMA LGI? smpai dah kna cop lembab. blaja tinggi melayut x dak guna katanya.

bengap sgt agak nya. budak ni bengap nk mampos. be it. dah bengap nk buat cemana. ty pon bengap jugak. x ty lagi bengap. so bengap la selamanya.nk kena jd kurang ajar jugak kot baru nk boleh.

oke bye.

deh-leer-ee-uhm

Hey there! :D It has been quite some time since i hv given maself a thought. given with only 24 hours per day, i wish for more. all of us do wish for the same, don't we? looking for an opportunity to upgrade urself ain't easy. the 24 hours allocation between relationships, jobs, families and allthecrazeyhblowingmymind stuffs is a jumble mumble. one of my concern today is how far can i reach within these 5 years, well i shall cut that to 4 years as 2012 is ending soon, should i? i always have dream of having a lovely family of my own ehem a doctorate once i reach 30. 


Albeit of wutever had passed by the last 6 months, i still cant decide on my research's title. How i wish it is as easy as writing my MBA's thesis 2 years ago. To actually come out with a title for one phD paper requires tons of head scratches. Blerghh. I might be bold by the end of this. Let juz say dat i hv all the ideas yet im still stuck on which area to choose. Kne betapa kot bru nk nmpk cahaya2. Heh. nvm when the time comes i'll be fine. *hopefully* 


Oke zati, cut the crap. Stay positive n treat every moment as a learning process. Nothing to lose. Try to love wut u r doin everyday n embrace it bit by bit. *fuuuhhh! Gambarimasu!*


P/s : Ramadhan is truly a bless. Dear Allah, i need all the guidance from U. From u n to u, i'll return. ;)

Heh juz to be by ur side helps to revive everything. 

Women n hormones.

 Pffft.

Swooshing butterflies!

Regardless of anything in the world, i juz love u n it never fades. I dun need gold, coz the time when im w u worth more than any gold in the world. yes the butterflies arent juz lurking around instead they are swooshing inside me. Coz u mean the entire world to me. Ai el yu.

<3

;D

living a life

haaaaaaaaaaaaaiiihhhh *mengeluh laagi*

x larat sgt. rasa mcm dah 60 thun. sumpah.

T.T

hai semangat sile kuat. 

leteyh rutin ni. mengeluh pon x bagoss. apa yg xckp lg pon xtaw.
sile bersyukur. hehehe. *a word to self*

pls life, do excites me! challenge me for i am ready for a new start.

nak bina hidop baruuuuu. everything from scratch boleh x? 

i want spices. i want sweet n sour. i dun want a tasteless life. 

i know im not that perfect. well nobody is perfect pon kan. but still im willing to change for a better me, for a better future. im trying to get a hold on everything today. be it my life, my job especially n my relationships. i have my own way of thinking n i have a good one. trying hard to be independent as i cud, n still trying, i,now today at this moment, am ready to take a new step further. coz i want to. i dun want to jinx dis but i am ready for it.  yes i am. n i do.

;) meow! Ya Allah semoga kau permudahkan segalanya. amin. 

i have never been so sure about dis in my life. but tonite i am. 

ai el yu