bouncy as a ball

Hye! *gedik x nk hye2* :p

Oke. I seriously need a boost! N i had 1 smlm w loves one. Nothing in this world can beat that. Im in a force field. Its so strong that im attrcted to none xcpt u. When i can be me n only myself wo letting anything to stop me. U define comfort. I dun need any make up to beautify me when u r around. *mcm niii* :p

n ive became more of myself day to day. 

Thanx Allah! For everything. ;D

now with everything in line. my major concern is my current earnings. how shud i say this? 

when it comes to a life decision making, i always find myself procrastinating on it. 

as it can be decided by itself.

my major problem today was bigger than which clothes shud i wear for my date today? *haha xpenah pon ada masalh ni- metafora oke?* what i love to do more- reading or writing? soalan ni je. nak jwb ni pon kena pikir panjang. i love both! tamak! i dun have guts for both! but i need to choose 1. when im stuck w reading like today, i wish i am writing atm. but i know if i were given a chance to actually writes, i'll face another side of problems. mana2 pon sama. credit jugak. so here's the thing. 

imma give it a try again. if dis seriously doesnt fit me. i'll move to write. 

Insya' Allah, everything will be fine. coz i always am. 

iloveubanyak! :p

Reaching out

Haih. Laju nye masa terbang kan? Jap je dah nk 2 thun abes belaja. Jap je nak 2 thun dah bekerja. Jap je dah tua lg 2 thun. Oke. Knapa nak mengeluh on dis matter kan? Bcoz time is flying faster than my self dvlpmnt. Aku mcm dok tegadah lagi, goyang kaki menonong lpas tu dah tua. Here's the thing.

My short term goal x achieve lgsg. Let see, nk menyimpan-x simpan pon. Nk ada dr by 30 n now im left w 5 years to go. Well as a human being yg stuck dlm zmn where intelligence r produced everywhere, im sort of left behind dah. N being sum one who always at her foot, im demotivated w that fact.

Tgk la skarang ni. When everyone else has a goal, im still huru hara. Apa pon tarak. I dun have a well paid income *oke yg ni xpe lah. Learning xpelah* n im still dat girl who cant walk like others. Im left behind. Waaaayyy behind.

Now when it comes to a once in a life time dcsion. I stuttered. I wanna go n see the world yet being me i dun hv the guts. Ni lah masalah dunia. Albeit everything that i have, im lack of guts.
Skarang saya akan menonong jugak. Doakan saya berani! Sayang nya nk tggl. Mampoo ke? Kuat x? Kalo x hermph jwbnye sy tgk upm lg la makne nye. ;p

Tekad. Titik.

im into u :p

sumpah aku boringg gila kalo kna keje mcm ni tiap hari.

kepala otak gua pon bleh dpt asthma jugak. semput smpai meletop.

:p  

woohoooo! oke mcm da lama sgt x tetaip. life is amazing lately. yeah despite of all the drama in the offce, everything else is perfect. as wut i'd mention b4, girls w emotional stability wont ask 4 more. 1 benda ni je jg. coz we are created emotionally attached. =D nuff said. dtg la malapetaka tjuh petala langit pon, there will always be a way. hehehe. 


my fb tiba2 ada klua feed from one of my hero kesukaan- zulhuzaimy. so he quoted this, n i quoted him here. the saying goes:

Hari ini dia mungkin seorang yang kaki mencarut, esok lusa mungkin dia adalah yang paling LEMBUT bicaranya... 

Hari ini dia mungkin seorang yang ingkar kepada Allah SWT, esok lusa mungkin dia adalah yang paling istiqomah melaksanakan QIYAMULLAIL kala kita semua sedang lena... 

Kita tidak pernah tahu dan tidak akan tahu. Tugas kita bukan me'neraka'kan orang. Tetapi...mengajak manusia ke jalanNYA dan saling doa mendoakan.... 

Jangan HINA permulaan seseorang..kerana kita TIDAK tahu bagaimana pengakhiran nya..

dunia skarang ni mcm2 anasir. kadang2 tu kita rasa kita x kacaw orng tp kdg2 tu apa yg kita buat secebis pon leyh buat orng benci. tp kan, as wut stated above, its not our right to judge. let say for example, a drunk men came out of a bar n dlm x seda tu he randomly ask u to be careful. dlm haty msti tedetik, kau pon jln senget2 nk suh aku elok2. ptt x? hermm ape kate instead of mcm tu kite berigt la to be careful. at least we r not prone to unwanted incident as he is. apa kata sblom ckp eh dea dulu pon x betol, lintang pukang, nak aja2 gua plak! apa kata kite ckp alhamdulilllah moga2 dea kekal n berubah lg baik, n moga2 aku pon boleh jd mcm tu. stop judging. x smstinya kita x boleh dgr ckp2 orng ni. as long as it is not against the law, agama, y not kan? mungkin dea ada ilmu wlpon dea x gna x amalkan tp x salah ilmu tu dea kongsi. its not our right to judge. tu hal dea dgn Allah.elok2 orng nak berubah kite doa kan. yg xde tebukak pintu haty tu kite doakan jugak. not only for them but to ourselves especially.  bagos2 kita, ada yg lg bagos. ilmu dlm dada x kn pernah ckop. jd jgn lah bajet bagos sgt. ni aku tulis entri mcm ni kompem yg dok baca ni ada la dlm haty tu yg nk kata, hek ele pempuan ni, kaw pon x betol nk nasihat org. wait seminit, here's the thing. this is not a nasihat for u instead its a reminder for myself. entri ni utk saya. bcoz i know im not that perfect. coz when people did judge u for wut u r potraying, for the way u dress, for u being urself thats when u know u shudnt be doing the same to another living organism. jom positive2 je. 

=D 

yes i cant love anybody else like i love u. stay if u do the same too. 

sayonara.