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*oke. Ini entry merungut. Warning sesiap*
Nadiah:"u sape ha? I x knal la u. Rmbut pendek ni buat u tgi sgt. X balance. N suddenly u nak buat sume bende. Ddk kejap pon x boleh. "

Zati: diam.

It has been months yet I'm not over it. Tu je. Hah da jwb. Lembzzzz. As if everywhere, anywhere, wutever, is still the same. rite now atm I shud hv been reminiscing memories since the story had ended months ago, yet I sumhow hallucinate things I.e when I walk, talk, work or wutever, evry FREAKIN things that I do, that is around me, it felt like the story never ended. I thought I'm done w it. I accept everything, who am I to argue faith. But hey y did I see u like 24/7? I've lost kilos, I've lost my voice, I've lost appetite, I've lost me, myself. I dun even know who am I any longer. Hey who the hell is she? Screw her I need another round of jabs. Best rupenye tumbok orng :)

doushitte?

guess what? i shud be writing up a report yet im updating this blog. screw report write up. i rather watch teddy mosby than finishing up the report. dis is wut u do when u have nothing to work on. *well if the report and the presentation doesnt counts*

im fine. seriously. inspite of the bleeerrrgh-wutever feeling everyday at work, im ok. when they told me that we have to attend the- ceo- wud- like- to -get- to- know- u -people- better luncheon session, it doesn't hype me at all. pepape je lah. lunch je lah. present je lah. exam je lah. wutever. there u go. aak? *pergh statement!*



laughter! mcm da lame x gelak seikhlas haty. :( excitement! i need that too! i need maturity. like seriously. i need strategic thinking and i need to work my brain out! hah! c'mon. orng ptt bersyukur. x de keje. dduk lepak gaji masok. no wonder rich people dont goyang kaki. now i know y! but hey, jgn merungut. oke u might merungut skali dua, but pelis la zaty always look down to those who r unfortunate instead of looking up and learn to be thankful for everything.

seoul garden is so sedap!

Alhamdulillah for all the rezeki.

there's people outside there who doesnt know wut seoul garden is n of course how tasteful it is!

so from my goyang kaki today, id watched the whole epi from season 2 of how i met ur mother. 1 epi simply touches me. episode 12- first time in new york. well apparently, im not the only one who actually take time to say those three words. i might have said it to numbers of people casually but to actually say it to one particular person is such a big step. coz i never did. oke i lied. i did once but nvm. for me it means the whole world. like robin wud mumbled everytime she thinks she cud reply it back to ted, i always did the same too. but the scenario here is that ted understands bout it, n he doesnt mind waiting coz he loves her. juz as simple as that. and at last she did it. w whole her heart she loves him. every single things takes time. especially for first timer. we take time to grow. we take time to get to know each other and accept flaws. we also take time to develop. and yes we do take time to change our routine. we need time for everything. yet time is limited. so yes im spending my free time for some lompat2 coz i need one. so 2pm im ready to PUT MY HANDS UP! n to travel to planet pit. :D alrite enuff w the rambling, im continuing to the next epi.

u had opened up a new horizon for me, n im thankful for that.

Aita kata? Aitaiyo~ :s

Oh. This came across my mind.

There's a girl.

1o years back she was almost muted. She didn't talk much.

She isolated herself from the whole world. not that she did it on purpose. she was raised as a quiet girl.

5 years later. She was still the same girl. But the only dffrnce was dis time round she started to open her eyes.she challenged herself beyond everyone's imagination.

3 years later. She got everything in her life. EVERYTHING dat a gurl cud ever ask for. The world was nothing to her. She nailed her steps. She was at her best. even though she didn't look as great as herself today. Yet she was at her happiest. spontaneously spontaneous at the right time. nothing cud break her through. she was FANTASTIC!

Today. She is still at her best. Instead she was in ahead of everybody else. Yet her inner self was back to 10 years ago. She dun hv to isolates herself yet she feels like one. There is a great wall in front of her. She juz lOok at it w no motivation to start climbing it. as if her willpower that she used to possessed 2 years back never exist. Wud cud possibly went wrong? That's a BIG q! not juz to herself but to everyone around her.

Oke bnyk sgt la she she. Tido lah!

u taught me all the important things.

sum said that, when a girl decided to change her look, she's changing sumthing in her life. do i?

from u taught me all the important things *taisetsu wutevericantrememberthewholetitle:p

natsumi: *warded for a risk of miscarriage* "i dun know to decide whether i want the baby or not. im tired".

doctor: "when u came here to see hikari previously, u were so strong".

natsumi: "that was because... i was still with shuuji. because of shuuji, i was able to be strong.now that im alone, i was so weak that... i even surprise myself"

weird ne? when u think that u r strong by urself but the truth is u were stronger when u have sumone there beside u all the time. when u think that u were good by all urself but actually when there was sumone else to share everything w u, u were awesome! :) thats a fact n thats life.

Taisetsu na koto wa subete kimi ga oshiete kureta

Heyya! :p

Guess what? Yesterday when I reached home after work, I slept till midnite n woke up w a grumpy stomach. But still i was so sleepy dat I didn't ate anything and went back to lala land. B4 dis I always skip my dinner n I'm fine w it. But hey to my surprise, I woke up dis morning w a motion sickness. As if I was on a boat.

Mama was worried like hell. Yet I insisted on going to the office. I told her not to worry much, I'll take half day once I'm done w my presentation. Once I reached menara Affin, i was told dat the meeting is postpone. So yeah I got myself an MC n I'm bedridden 4 the whole day.

Never had I thought dat I'll get this sort of sickness. Dehydration. Smpai pengsan. Pathetic la zaty niiiiii. -.- Nasib baik sesayangs dtg umah. n rs mcm da oke sikit so we went out to mali's n now I'm revived. But still lembik lg. so dearest take gud care of urself. Mkn bnyk2. Dun skip ur meals. :D Due to this, I hv no idea if I'm able to kick box again this weekend. Deymn it!

Oke. Stop rambling. Me need a bed now.

I wanna go back, do u? :'(

gidarilke

hey,

look at this.

the last part doesnt seems right

yes every women want to be a man's last love.

but it'll b the world to be the 1st man of her life's last love.

:(

nuff said. i thought i cud be one of the above. but it turn out that im not.

life cud hv been better. it shud!

even though each morning u r stuck in a bad traffic jam,

clocked in late into the office,

piled up with works on the table

or worse- piled up with nothing to do xcpt staring at the ceiling

and cursing how boring ur job has been

the needs to b xtra cautious just to utter a word to ur colleague

to stuck in a bad traffic jam again odw back home

or being trampled in the monorail everyday.

all these happening are nothing once u r happy w ur life.

n to b happy is not an easy job.

especially when u were once on top of the world after climbing out so hard from the darkness n now u r back into it slowly.

im not myself n i know it

Shiawasen :)

So it's 11.11.11. And people are practically hype over the date. Well a date is a date. Such a nice date is gud to crave a memorable moments of one's life. When I glanced at the calendar today, I saw a note for 12.11. 11. Then it hits me. I seriously had wasted so much time that I didn't realize it has been a year.

I remember that exactly on this date last year, we, insanely insane people, went for a 6hours of singing- our- heart out session. :D juz to celebrate khai no tanjoubi. Apart from to lepas rindu to each other. That was a great one. I was sick but who cares, I wanna go n hve fun n I glad I did! So yes. Happy birthday again abng long! Sile encem2 jd lg bahek :)

U know, people always come n go, but the memories remain. That's the saying. But as according to zati's saying *hehe :p * people always come into ur life yet the persons who remains till the end through ups n downs, through LMAO times n PMS moments are the one who u shud appreciate. They may go but they'll come back for the awesomely awesome memories they've been through w u. Silaturrahim x elok putus2. :)

Okie dokie. Dah bejanggut rs ddk kt lobby ni tgu mak datin. Tc sygS! ;D

hontou no jibun wo miushinaikaketeiru

today. am back to work after a not-long-enough break of eid adha.

back in dat damn bored mortgage department. doin nothing.

but today ive learned a lot. on relationship n stuffs! *see dis is how u occupied every minute of ur boring life- rambling*

a fren was having a prob w her girl. dis and dat, cut it short. we found out dat his girl is sumhow is similar to me. of course not the look coz she's waaay too cute to compare to me at the 1st place.i mean perangai. from all of this, sumhow i got wut ive been looking for after the downs.

i admit. im the kind of girl who love to potray herself as a strong-hearted girl to every guy that ive met. i shud be hardcore. *of course physically not the other part eheh* as if im always okayh. there always a positive side of everything. i NEVER look at things negatively. let juz say, my gf, she doesnt reply to me, i wud definitely wud not think that she hates me, but instead she prolly is busy with her workloads or she needs sum time to be alone n she'll come back for sure. i hate to think on the dark side. well if she doesnt comes back after such a looong time, i know there's sumthing wrong.

well this might not be the same to her. she might thinks that im ignoring her, totally taking things for granted. so the result of our so-called impromptu meeting today was communication.

ckp la sume bende. ckp jeeeeee. bia la orng nak marah or wut. sakit kan je haty orng. jerit je la sesuka haty. at least that one side will know ur side of story. n things wud come in handy if it'll ever happen again. :)

im a noob. so i dun chipped in much today. who am i to sebok2 kan. juz let the faith works its charm. there's always sumthing good in everything. Allah x kan bg dugaan kalo bukan nak menguji hambanya. igt smpai maty. but still if things can be work out. sort it. jgn bia mcm tu je. ape pon x dpt. if we truly want sumthing or someone we work for it. hasil x dtg begolek. serupe la itu MLM! ddk2 duit masok peluh setitik x kua. BUT! ade but ok. if it involve sumone, it takes two to tango. cubelah tango sorng2 kalo nk jd badut. life must go on. with everything remains im still surviving. oke bye! off to bed. oyasuminasai from me n kiiro! :p XX

yes. mistake is to be forgiven. lesson is to be learnt.

trust wont ever be the same. but all the memories created ties everything back together.

mama pesan: once everything goyah the only thing that cud gam us back r the memories.

i guess ours wasnt strong enuff. dat it doesnt seems like i lekat within u a bit pon even if u were like a gam gajah inside here.

blergh blergh blergh wutever!